Hello

Can I be honest 
Honest with you
Honest with myself
Can I honnor and respect this gut feeling that we just connect in such a peculiar way.

The very first sitting and exchange of words I reconised there was something unusual about you and I felt a draw to you that I couldn't shake.

 I knew I wanted to know you, share time with you and see what we would be about.

Hello can you read me lol

Hi

I am back its been a long time away but I am back I am here
Life has most certainly happened but I am here
Used and wasted a lot of tears but I am here
stubbed my toe, banged my elbow, walked into a lamppost lol
but I am here.

There has been some success and some failures, I am still here.
A moment when I drew the curtain call on myself BUT I am here
So while I am here with the very breath given to me I will make
being  here count in every way that I possibly can
To honestly say in the end  despite this crazy ride I have found myself on
through

The laughing until I cried
crying until I laughed
Tickles and fights
Looking at the mirror and out of windows
Kisses and hugs
Redemption songs
Failures and Successes
Reaching of purpose
Late nights and early mornings
Feelings of being wanted
and being unwanted
Travels
Visions hopes and dreams
Conversations with God and singing of psalms

yes I wish to be contented in it all and for the final call to hear well done thou good and faithful servant.... well that's,thats when the greatest ride begins.













it has been worth it

The Mark

Theres something in me that loves what I know I shouldn't

To say that I love you and still intentionally hurt you , how I fail at knowing love , how I fail at givinging it back to you.

Any Man would have left me from the get go but you are here, you promise me you always will be.

I talk with the girls about the bad guys and the no good men then in the midnight hour I cause you to bow your head and your tears shed.

I dry them with my guilt or so I think just to0 have you weep all over again.

But I listened to a love song and they said they loved you more than anything ..and I thought to myself how can I truly love you more than ANYTHING if its not more than the thing I love thats so hidden and dark.

I want to love you wholeheartedly, to put all hidden things aside and let you wash over me.
To jump at the chance to speak with you, to sit in your presence in perfect silence. To know  you so that your vines are rooted in my mind and heart.

Help me to know true love ,help me to know your perfect love which sounds like a resounding symphony . Open my ears to hear and my eyes to see and my heart to learn.

Father God teach me how to love

STRAIGHT FRM SOUTHAMPTON

Taken - part 1

Iam still here but I am taken

I sit here, I smile, but still I am taken

I run from the shame .....am I forsaken ?

What is the equation to   SOME kind of substantial peace

What s the method to formulate a way to cancel out the images of my past.

Then silence speaks and advises me  ..(sigh) thanks for all your help!

I put my heart on the stove , put it  to 200 degrees

And this heat of hate flows out of me.

 I ve bared the pain from that time in my life yet iam still tending to my wounds

But what do i do.....what do  i do                

      

God iam trying but iam slipping away an day by day darkness covers me ..slowly surrounding me.

Never let loose on healing tears but carry all my fears like i went on a shopping spree....the credit card being me...,scanning my life against things which weren’t meant to be.

God where are you i need you , i sometimes feel  you’ve already left me because of the wrong i have done and the songs i’ve sung, i don’t know if ull ever forgive me.

Yet I hear a small still voice saying hold on.

So i as enjoy the grey shaded rainbow and the cold breeze on my skin

I wont yet ..i cant yet  give in

So ill take advice from the still voice instead of the silence

And keep holding on , for one day i hope it will all be ok an when it is i know , i will be found

LDN

London Boy

    I could take the London night

and wrap around you,

Take the neon lights and make a crown,

Take the London trans busses,

Taxis , undergrounds

And for your love song tone their rumble down.

Take London’s heartbeat,

Make a drumbeat,

Put it on a record, let it whirl,

And while we listen to it play,

Dance with you till day--

Dance with you, my loving brown London boy

A moment please

FEELIN THE PRESSURE

EVERY BREATH IAM CONTAINING THE CARBON EMOTIONS THAT COULD LIGHT THAT FLAME

TO REALSE ALL THE INSECURITEES IAM FEELING RIGHT NOW

LET IT BE KNOWN TO THE WORLD THAT IAM EXHALEING

FEELIN THE PRESSURE

TO SPEAK A FEW DESCRIBLE LIES , WHITE ROSES OR RED LAID ON A BED HOLDING HANDS TALKING ON FUTURE PLANS.

JUST GOTTA STAY HONEST THAT IAM WORKING ON PLANS WITH G.O.D

BUT THERE AND HERE IS THE PRSEEURE CONSTANTLY STARING AT ME  READY TO TAKE OF TO THE MOON AND NOT LAND BUT STAY IN,MOTION WITH MY DREAMS AT HAND.

PLEASE UNDERSTAND I WANT WHAT YOU DO JUST PLEASE TRY AND UNDERSTAND I WANT WHAT YOU DREAM FOR ME JUS PLEASE GIVE ME SOME T.I.M.E AN LET WHAT WILL BE, BE.