STRAIGHT FRM SOUTHAMPTON

Taken - part 1

Iam still here but I am taken

I sit here, I smile, but still I am taken

I run from the shame .....am I forsaken ?

What is the equation to   SOME kind of substantial peace

What s the method to formulate a way to cancel out the images of my past.

Then silence speaks and advises me  ..(sigh) thanks for all your help!

I put my heart on the stove , put it  to 200 degrees

And this heat of hate flows out of me.

 I ve bared the pain from that time in my life yet iam still tending to my wounds

But what do i do.....what do  i do                

      

God iam trying but iam slipping away an day by day darkness covers me ..slowly surrounding me.

Never let loose on healing tears but carry all my fears like i went on a shopping spree....the credit card being me...,scanning my life against things which weren’t meant to be.

God where are you i need you , i sometimes feel  you’ve already left me because of the wrong i have done and the songs i’ve sung, i don’t know if ull ever forgive me.

Yet I hear a small still voice saying hold on.

So i as enjoy the grey shaded rainbow and the cold breeze on my skin

I wont yet ..i cant yet  give in

So ill take advice from the still voice instead of the silence

And keep holding on , for one day i hope it will all be ok an when it is i know , i will be found

LDN

London Boy

    I could take the London night

and wrap around you,

Take the neon lights and make a crown,

Take the London trans busses,

Taxis , undergrounds

And for your love song tone their rumble down.

Take London’s heartbeat,

Make a drumbeat,

Put it on a record, let it whirl,

And while we listen to it play,

Dance with you till day--

Dance with you, my loving brown London boy

A moment please

FEELIN THE PRESSURE

EVERY BREATH IAM CONTAINING THE CARBON EMOTIONS THAT COULD LIGHT THAT FLAME

TO REALSE ALL THE INSECURITEES IAM FEELING RIGHT NOW

LET IT BE KNOWN TO THE WORLD THAT IAM EXHALEING

FEELIN THE PRESSURE

TO SPEAK A FEW DESCRIBLE LIES , WHITE ROSES OR RED LAID ON A BED HOLDING HANDS TALKING ON FUTURE PLANS.

JUST GOTTA STAY HONEST THAT IAM WORKING ON PLANS WITH G.O.D

BUT THERE AND HERE IS THE PRSEEURE CONSTANTLY STARING AT ME  READY TO TAKE OF TO THE MOON AND NOT LAND BUT STAY IN,MOTION WITH MY DREAMS AT HAND.

PLEASE UNDERSTAND I WANT WHAT YOU DO JUST PLEASE TRY AND UNDERSTAND I WANT WHAT YOU DREAM FOR ME JUS PLEASE GIVE ME SOME T.I.M.E AN LET WHAT WILL BE, BE.

ITS HARD DEALING WITH A HEART YOU DIDN'T BREAK

Comin Back

As we Talked the hours rolled on not realising the trust and comfort  which was going back and forth between us....in grossed  yet still sat apart in safe positions not realising the historic event which is apart to occur.

Then tiredness kicks in ,As you where about too leave I got up to give u a strictly your my friend hug.

Then something happens embracing hands are lower than they should be slightly on the border of caressing. The kiss on the check leads to the sweet trail to the lips pulling back n forth ever so slowly it would'nt be easy for the eye to miss.

Going back to the bed where innocent intentions did lay now covered with shared air rhythmic sounds the motive is no longer known but it has something to do with earlier before but there's no way out no lust has got bodies entangled into soft moans an momentary enjoyment.

Its all now coming to an end, and begins the realisation which dawns that we are no longer friends , that ship has sailed away and like the suns rays the shame burns me as he wallows in  confusion, what are we now to do with this sumship we're  in. ?

6wks have passed and I hold my stomach having the strongest notion that somethingjust ain't right . i thought despite the manifestation we would be OK but now the man in the white coat is telling me congratulations..

My heart sinks lungs feel like they are about to collapse I get visions of all that people will say an do , tears wont help so I don’t cry contemplation to get rid of a percentage of a nation comes to mind ,,,but Iknow I cant bring total condemnation on myself . I am now left with this history of shame insecurity and hurting my mind is burning to the fact of why I let you stay in the first place, under it all on a serious note did I want you to stay anyway, knowing my weakness is leeway for the enemy to gully creep intiothe picture and play us both like puppets.

He wants to hit and run and I am left with all this mess.

God I amso sorry, so sorry, I amsuch a mess

I don’t know where to start and I've harden my heart to myself

I just want you to be pleased at my presence

But Forgiveness seems to be at a distance.

But it says in your word that you can correct and restore

 that you were bruised for my iniquity,

And whipped for our transgressions,

Therefore I ask for your forgiveness grace and mercy.

For those you love you chastise.. don’t want the enemy to hold me back with my past to spend eternity with you.

Yes time ...  I now feel  like ...no i know  you are doing a new thing within me, moving forward with you Lord its in my destiny

 I LOVE YOU LORD FOR YOU ARE JEHOVAH MY JUDGE MY KNIG AND I GIVE MYSELF AWAY TO YOU AGIAN !!!

Quotes for the Week - Goals

 The diamond may adorn royalty, regardless of personal worth;  but jewels of thought render even poverty illustrious and sublime. 
      - found in Gems for the Fireside

 The virtue lies in the struggle, not in the prize.
   Richard Monckton Milnes

The great and glorious masterpiece of
man is to know how to live to purpose.
Michel de Montaigne

Amazing Up n Coming Artist

If Shakespeare

If Shakespeare

My poetry comes from the heart of me
but when I share it does it now belong to you ?
If no one was to hear or see the words that I compose
would I still write?.....would it even be SPOKEN word.?
Could it be just letters on the page coverd up, nesting quietly
in my handbag.?
Is THIS THINGt to be yours or mine, understand I speak
from more than just the movement of my mind.
I write with all that God is given me, allowing me in liberty to transfer inspiration
into written form.
Does Shakespears work belong to the people or still to him?
What I write it can be yours and mine
Want to be able to inspire , to move your heart and mind.

What A letter from our Spritual Father would say Ladies :)

So  

The search for truth implies a duty. One must not conceal any part of what one has recognized to be true. --Albert Einstein

Peace if possible, truth at all costs.-- Martin Luther

In this world, those who seek the truth will also find trouble. --Gary Amirault

But

Whoever the Son of God (Jesus Christ) sets free is free indeed!  ~ Jesus  
The Gospel of John 8:38

The Divine Exchange

The Supremely good and magnificant exchange,
to give such a priceless jewel in return for what seems a worhtless rock like coal
Your Love to this present day is greatly seen, for you saw worth in this lifeless thing
even in the times of immnse pressure and Natures course.
YOU forsore the diamond which laid beneath the dirt that seemed unchangeable,
YET you knew it would take time maybe longer than it should for this jewel to be revealed
to be recongnised.These jewels that were brought with a price it was not looked at through mans but heavens eyes.
The divine exchange, your begottton son was the highest paid that the crown jewels could not cover such a cost, so we are forever in a deficit.
These dead rocks that were to be brought to life , these rocks that would have been left for the firey flames , it is found difficult to believe that something as uncomely as coal can be transformed into something as beautiful as diamonds but yes,
YOU made the exchange that transformation could take place, the chance to be placed in front of the Master jeweler inside heavenly gates to be admired and congratulated with distinction.
The divine exchange the greatest gift given by God for man.

Killer

Killer

I got em good and proper ....consitanly tryna creep up on unexpecting me,
Heaven knows why he decided to buzz into the center of my mind.
He takes rest n rests again.
I caught em once gave em the oppertunity to fly away,
but like a Junkie to its dealer it came running back.
I am ready to smash the glass that had em captured, maybe my method was'nt right..
Ill do it right this time ,to kill em without hesitation.
His presense disgusts me so much closing my eyes tonight knowing that specimen is around ales me to
contaminate my hands with whatever will do the job.
Almost gave up hope.....but alas
it is thou ..on my bed resting so peacfully, but I am not here to play.
I creep up slowly, breath ....SLAM I get em breaking his neck as I went for em.
Satisfaction haha watchin em closely like an Owl fixated on the squirming.
I scoop him up gently tip him out the window and return to bed.
Iam the Cheshire Cat ....yes finally I got em
I got that fly good and proper.

lol

WHO AM I (THE VISITOR )

WHO AM I

The monthly visitor who insists on staying for a wk or so, see the visit is tidious at times yet its still a comfort for it reminds us of yet another chance to experience the beautiful blessing for the start of motherhoodand thats all there is to it.

Period