Hello

Can I be honest 
Honest with you
Honest with myself
Can I honnor and respect this gut feeling that we just connect in such a peculiar way.

The very first sitting and exchange of words I reconised there was something unusual about you and I felt a draw to you that I couldn't shake.

 I knew I wanted to know you, share time with you and see what we would be about.

Hello can you read me lol

Hi

I am back its been a long time away but I am back I am here
Life has most certainly happened but I am here
Used and wasted a lot of tears but I am here
stubbed my toe, banged my elbow, walked into a lamppost lol
but I am here.

There has been some success and some failures, I am still here.
A moment when I drew the curtain call on myself BUT I am here
So while I am here with the very breath given to me I will make
being  here count in every way that I possibly can
To honestly say in the end  despite this crazy ride I have found myself on
through

The laughing until I cried
crying until I laughed
Tickles and fights
Looking at the mirror and out of windows
Kisses and hugs
Redemption songs
Failures and Successes
Reaching of purpose
Late nights and early mornings
Feelings of being wanted
and being unwanted
Travels
Visions hopes and dreams
Conversations with God and singing of psalms

yes I wish to be contented in it all and for the final call to hear well done thou good and faithful servant.... well that's,thats when the greatest ride begins.













it has been worth it

The Mark

Theres something in me that loves what I know I shouldn't

To say that I love you and still intentionally hurt you , how I fail at knowing love , how I fail at givinging it back to you.

Any Man would have left me from the get go but you are here, you promise me you always will be.

I talk with the girls about the bad guys and the no good men then in the midnight hour I cause you to bow your head and your tears shed.

I dry them with my guilt or so I think just to0 have you weep all over again.

But I listened to a love song and they said they loved you more than anything ..and I thought to myself how can I truly love you more than ANYTHING if its not more than the thing I love thats so hidden and dark.

I want to love you wholeheartedly, to put all hidden things aside and let you wash over me.
To jump at the chance to speak with you, to sit in your presence in perfect silence. To know  you so that your vines are rooted in my mind and heart.

Help me to know true love ,help me to know your perfect love which sounds like a resounding symphony . Open my ears to hear and my eyes to see and my heart to learn.

Father God teach me how to love