The Mark

Theres something in me that loves what I know I shouldn't

To say that I love you and still intentionally hurt you , how I fail at knowing love , how I fail at givinging it back to you.

Any Man would have left me from the get go but you are here, you promise me you always will be.

I talk with the girls about the bad guys and the no good men then in the midnight hour I cause you to bow your head and your tears shed.

I dry them with my guilt or so I think just to0 have you weep all over again.

But I listened to a love song and they said they loved you more than anything ..and I thought to myself how can I truly love you more than ANYTHING if its not more than the thing I love thats so hidden and dark.

I want to love you wholeheartedly, to put all hidden things aside and let you wash over me.
To jump at the chance to speak with you, to sit in your presence in perfect silence. To know  you so that your vines are rooted in my mind and heart.

Help me to know true love ,help me to know your perfect love which sounds like a resounding symphony . Open my ears to hear and my eyes to see and my heart to learn.

Father God teach me how to love